|*25th July' 06*|

I've been trying to keep track of time, BUT I still can't.. -.= Projects are dueing in like 3 weeks, and I haven't really started in them lahs. As for those in the middle of it, I'm like lost. What's wrong with me? I haven't even really started studying for my modules lohs.. and exam is like when..3wks?!!! Why aren't I like when I was a Yr 1 when I chiong for Everything... What's the Problem NOw??? =S

Fear, I MUST go through this Semester. MUST! Help!!! =\

I guess I'm above the Suface already. Very Glad! =) Have been Happy this pass few weeks =D Just some part was kinda pissed off. I guess my tolerance level have been improved for the pass 2 yrs? Pple who had known my temper says that I'm better than before.. LOLx.. Good to Hear. DOn't Test Me..!!! *Turned Off*

Have been Happy.. but to that there's also fear which I have felt. Which I cannot explain why I'm fearing and What it really is... =\

|*19th July' 06*|

Today is 1 'farnie' day ehhs.. LOLx.. I dunno which word to use to describe lahs.. Do I look that different when I wear a skirt or something? I've got like 5 exclaimation today.. My frens were like shock or something, den dun regconise me from afar loh.. farnie sehs..LOLx.. =\ A ca cher also..alamak..=.-

Sighh.. I broke my promise to A ca tt I'll be back to join them after Virtuoso, particularly for the competition like tmr? But due to some bad times, emotional setbacks I wasnt in the right mood to even sing, and I avoided the pple just so I won't be asked or something. But today I finally went to see them, was kinda glad to see them, very happy indeed.=D Teacher saw me dun really regconise me la.. in skirt, red specs..LOLx.. hmm.. he said I broke my promise, I didnt go back.. That struck me seriously.. sObz. I just couldn't, didn't have the courage to face it. Kinda sad and regretful of not being part of the competitors, which being in it to me is an important opportunity to me as it is singing. I brought things upon myself which is partly my wrong doing so, all I can do is go support U'all and return yea =) Hopefully I'll be back to my old standard and perform with U'all yea.. =D

|*16th Jly' 06*|

"Only when we are able to see our true selves, only then we'll understand why Jesus is in our Lives."

- Church Parish Priest -

"Pray for Repentance, and miracles will be experienced."
- Church Parish Priest -

"Faith without works is like a bird without wings; though she may hop around on earth, she will never fly to heaven."
- Joseph Beaumont -

[Jesus said,]
"Whoever remains in me will bear much fruit; for you can do nothing without me."
- John 15:5 -

"My grace is all you need, for my power is strongest when you are weak."
- 2 Corinthinans 12:9 -

"If a radio's slim fingers can pluck a melody out of the night and toss it over mountains and the sea; if the petal- white notes from a violin are blown across the desert and the city's din... why should mortals wonder if God hears prayers?"
- Marvin Drake -

Are we still searching for someone for whom our heart longs? "You were within me, but I was outside, and it was there that I searched for you."
- St. Augustine -

Faith is a Gift of the Father... The Gift of Faith unites us with Christ. Our union with Christ enables us to profess the Truth.

|*11th July' 06*|

I know I should just accept what is given to me everytime of my life and not ask for too much or whateva, but for things that are just around the corner, are we entitled to get them by our own efforts? Although it's not given to us directly? I mean not everything it so easy to get rite, we still hafta work for it rite? But then the thing rite now is, i have to give other pple chance. I cannot just get what I want just for myself. Must share, everyone has a chance to do anything, so why do I feel sad and disappointed. Well maybe coz I've always felt invisible, I know that just sounds so impposible rite, yea.. hmm..I dunno how to say bahs.. haiz.. Anywayz.. everything is done in such a way that there's a reason behind it, whether got benefit a not lahs..

Above is 1 thing troubling me, here, there's another 1. I don't think I should really care or think about this too much, coz I know it might not do me good. hahazZ. Oh well, so what is it now arhs, why is it coming to me like this? I have enough on my mind to handle rite. hmm.. Some1 tell me what's happening in me can?

|*7th July' 06*|

Aye aye.. Kor kor go NS liao.. 2 weeks in bmts.. Aiyo.. No 1 watch World Cup final with me le..=\ And the house will kinda be quiet, coz no 1 ka chiao me..=X hahazZ.. nvm it's ok de...=x Wonder how he look like when bo tak..=X Will definitely miss him. God Bless.. TC worx!

Hmmm.. Didn't go today coz need to do project things..=( Den just now reach home, my mom immediately booked me for 1st Sept le.. coz that's when my bro grads from bmts. Kinda excited lehs...=X Wahs.. such a busy sister, need to be booked 2 months in advance...=X Can't miss this chance anymore le.. So dun plan things on tt day kays...=X I'm booked!! Impt event. LOLx!

As usual.. Tiring day for me.. Everything starts piling on top of my head. The more its coming, the more I don't feel like doing.. aiyo!!! How.. Why been through so many cycles of these I still have the same kinda reaction cannot cope properly de.. Why arhs?!!Haiz..

Lead Me to My Light Path...

|* 3rd July' 06*|

Oh Gosh!! I dropped my beloved Specs on the floor lahs.. Slipped from the head somemore...wat impact.. =( And I got a pimple.. Oh MY... jus when my pimple cream no longer exist.. -.=

Nothing much happen today bahs.. jus feel the same uncertainty inside me that has been rooted in me all this while.

Not Myself anymore..

"Why Give in to Fear instead of the Power of God?"
Have Faith!

I suppose I fell and lost to fear coz I didn't have faith, just like Peter. Which is what/why I end up now.

I wonder why I'm still crying when I'm alone, when I'm going to sleep, Crying my to sleep practically everynight or day. I doubt I drink enough everyday to replenished the fluid I lose every single day. I pray in church, I'm fighting back tears.. What's wrong with me? What's my problem. I don't even understand. Such Troubled Teenager.